now i know what its like to be a
homebound girl.
work home work home.
where's the party girl in me?
where's the girl who loved to roam
the streets aimlessly?
where's the girl who loved to spend her
afternoons with her girlfriends?
she dissipated into thin air
the moment she realised that you're
not around to hold her all the time.

i'm so afraid to go out.
so afraid that i'll lose my way when i
step out although i'm so familiar
with the roads that i walk on.
i feel so lost. so lost without you.
we have each other all the time
for the past couple of months.
the sudden change threw us in disarray.
so vulnerable and paralysed right now.

there are times when i cant seem to
understand why you have to reply her.
from a girl's point of view,
the more you contact her, the harder
and longer would it be for her to let go.
and indirectly telling her that she still
has a chance with you.
and then i'll question myself if i was
being too much, too overboard.

i just want you to understand that
i'm just slightly uncomfortable
whenever i see her love notes about you.
(its like how would you feel if you saw
another guy writing lovey dovey stuff
about me?)
i know she just wants you to treat
her like a friend and not ignore her.
but does she treat you as a friend?
just think about it. i'm a girl too.
i know what she's thinking. for sure.

i havent been sleeping well.
it takes really long for me to fall
into a slumber.
and i rise to feel like a zombie.
i need to rest.
i need to start to adapt to the
"see-my-baby-once-a-week" pattern.
i need you now.


/when does it stop.